I have never been one of the popular people. Growing up, I always wanted to be part of the popular group, and be a part of something; feel included. It never happened, by the way, but I always had good friends. To me, that was the most important thing. Looking back, I don’t exactly understand why I wanted to be popular. Why did I want to be just like everybody else? How boring!! I’ve always thought of myself as an outsider, a little different. It took me a long to for me to come to terms that being different, was alright. I didn’t have to be like everyone else.
Even as an adult, there were moments when I just wanted to fit in. They weren’t as frequent as they were when I was a teenager, but that niggling feeling was still there. I do have to remind myself that I have great friends, and i dont need to fit in with anyone. Need to stop being a square peg, trying to fit into a round hole.